Wake up to the current time. Wake up to the dreams that you have never seen before. Wake up to unexpected life you anticipate nothing but insanity. Simply wake up to the smell of what molds you into who you are now.
I think I've strayed away a tad too far lately. Reality checks in, and everything else seems to fade away slowly. A tad too far, a tad too long. I have to come back, I have to. At least to keep myself sanity alive and kicking.
It's just one those things.
It's one of those that pulls you back to earth, realising that every high has it's low moments and that doesn't mean it'll stick to that. Take it, improvise it and make it your own thing.
So I've allowed myself on those days to be selfish for myself. Do what I know is best to cure this insanity. The thing is, the things I decide to do is always out of the norm. One that others don't understand or perhaps able to see the way I do. Unconventional is probably a better word for it? Yeah, something like that.
Whatever it takes to get myself back and wake up to this world, I'll take it. Chances are, it's usually the best thing to have happen.
I only know one way to do it, to deal with life and that is to trust my instinct. Follow the heart? Yup. That sounds just like it.
It's the only life's compass that's relevant to use till this day.
I may look like I have utterly no clue what I get myself into, but deep down, I know by following the heart, I'll be in a good place. A safe one that shelters me from the nightmares. Denying this will only resort to entering the graveyard. I know the consequences and by doing so, I'll deal with it when it comes.
As long as I have faith and follow my heart, I should be just fine.
People forget to live. Without realising, they lose their faith in life bit by bit.
Truth be told, I am scared. Scared of the unknown, scared that I'll fall and shatter into pieces. Scared that I won't be able to put things together in time to come. Just scared to be vulnerable.
Then again, that's what makes us humans essentially. The part where we let ourselves vulnerable is just a reminder that we still have to care where the matter of the heart is concerned.
Sigh. Life is a predicament sometimes. The best way to deal with it is do something because it's what you believe and love. That's the only secret I know that keeps me going.
Heartbreaking at times but.. hey, God must have really good reason for everything to happen. Every little detail. The mastermind for all things insane, that's Him alright.
Life. I have nothing else to say to you.
Except maybe, please be gentle to this little heart.