Life has it's perks..
when you figure out the little secrets to what works with you and what doesn't.
Sometimes even what usually works for you has it's days when it feels off. Oh well, nothing really stays the same 24/7. Just have to shake things up a little bit before it comes back to neutral. That's pretty normal I think.
Even I have odd days when I need to readjust/realign my mind, belief and feeling with the things that is going on. Why I don't think too much about certain things that is currently happening is because if I do think too much, more than I should be reading; I would
1. Ruin the idea of living the moment
2. Create a sense of awkwardness that wasn't there
3. Simply couldn't enjoy the good things in life.
It'll be harder when we want things to be the way we are so used to. I guess it'll help that we grow along with the changes. Adapt to it as quickly and wonderful as we can..and then things won't be as odd as it could have been.
If I were to think about it, it is somewhat scary when I evaluate this whole thing. I could be a million times more screwed up, nervous, afraid and unsure but I choose to not be one just because instead of spending those time being such a wreck, I could simply embrace whatever I have and make it better.
Why not make it something I like rather than one I would sulk over? Why spend time regretting of the changes, of the not so good events when I have the power to create a whole new experience, one that is custom made to my preference.
Yeah, I can't deny, I do feel nervous. Afraid of the what ifs and unsure if what I am doing is the right thing to do. But I don't want these feelings to conquer my life, to navigate my present and future. No, noooo...that's the last thing I want.
Sigh. Life. You simply drive me nuts. Even when I don't read in between the lines.